My Nightmare

I know this is off topic but I had the most terrible and odd dream last night. I was standing in
my kitchen and I heard a loud bang then I felt a strong wind blowing. I felt kind of dizzy as I stumbled into the livingroom and sat on the couch. I rested my head down on the arm rest.

I looked around as the room began to spin. I saw lots of red. As the spinning slowed down I saw a room full of ticker tape and a large display which said October 2008. Someone yelled crash then more red. The spinning started up again and I awoke. I was sweating. I stumbled to the kitchen for a drink of water and noticed the window was broken. I got scared. I called my friend but she was not home. I sat alone on the couch and thought of what to do.

I just woke up an hour ago and thought I would post a blog entry to get these feelings all out. If you have any ideas on why someone broke my window or about my dream I would really appreciate it. I am really scared. Please email me at susan@clinchportal.com or comment on this blog posting. I will be checking it throughout the day hoping for a response. I will check my facebook too in case you have responded there.

April 4, 1974 - My Birthday

Out of curiousity I decided to read the entry related to my birth. I remember my mom telling me about some incident at the hospital and for a long time they would not talk to grandma. Here are the diary entries. They were very shocking to me but they revealed a lot:

(April 19, 1974) Today will be an exciting day, I feel it but
something not
so good is on the horizon; I can feel the battle growing. My
daugher did not
like my response to her telling me she was pregnant. Now the
baby is due
today.

(April 20, 1974) It happened and now she is mad at me. I sensed it coming but
didn’t know what. When that nurse went to leave and I told her to stay because
something was going to happen but I didn’t know what, she lost it. “I will only
be gone a couple minutes” she insisted. I begged her to stay. A few seconds
later the baby started to cough, her temperature started to rise. The nurse
rushed over to help and the temperature came back down and she was ok. On the
way out the nurse stated that it was a good thing she stayed that extra couple
seconds or Susan would have died. They all looked at me as if I was a witch and
I was not allowed near the baby.

OMG! I am in shock now to know that I was almost not born and it was my grandmother that saved my life. I have to take a minute to breathe. This is a lot to handle. I will post again as soon as I am brave enough to read further.

Introducing Susan Fischer and Ida Fischer

First let me start off introducing myself. My name is Susan Fischer and I am the great grand daughter of Ida Fischer. At age 10, I realized I had the ability to dream things before they happened. My friend Crimson and I were talking one day and she mentioned a study she found about gifts and how they are passed. When someone goes through a life impacting event the dna adapts over the next generation to help them handle similar events in the future. The study pointed out that the grand kids of holocaust survivors would have markers in their genes that give them a higher tolerance to extreme stress.

On my 35th birthday a good friend of mine presented me with this journal and it has changed my life. I am seeing a lot how my grandmother's experiences affected my gift. It altered my view on life so much that I thought I would share some of the entries that mean the most to me. I hope you enjoy them and will pass them on to your friend as well so they can experience them too.

I would really appreciate your comments on my postings as it may help me deal with what I am going through. I am using this blog as an outlet to help me get through this. I would love to connect with you personally as well. I am going through a lot right now and could use the friendship.

My email address is susan@clinchportal.com and my facebook profile link is http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=591510944

Love


Susan Fischer
susan@clinchportal.com